Allowance
Sitting on the train, early morning commute. I forgot how bleak it is to get up and leave the house at 6:30am.
This morning I’m thinking about fitting in creativity to the new shapes of my life. I’m currently in an in-between period, where I’m in between houses, in between cities, and will be job-hunting in earnest, too.
I am still working on these projects:
Album 2
My Patreon
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I do feel like I am interested in moving back to an “older internet” way of doing things. Sending emails. Writing blogs. It just feels like what I’m drawn to, and what other people are drawn to as well. I currently find myself spending hours on an Instagram carousel post to only have a fraction of my audience see it. And for what???
The people making money on Instagram are telling you that’s where you need to be. But I don’t feel like that’s “it”. I do just wonder where is the best place to connect with people who would like my music?
Am I putting enough of my music out there for people to sample and enjoy, though? Or am I still a bit ashamed it’s not “good enough” and am waiting for the next project to be finished so I can showcase more current work?
Asking these questions out loud might help me figure it out.
I’m posting to my website blog again because I’ve really been enjoying seeing how other people do it. I’ve set up an RSS feed on my laptop. There’s just something simpler about it and you feel in conversation with yourself. You’re surrounded by context. Whereas on Instagram or other social media you have to get the context out on the page every time you post. You’ve got to tell your whole story in 3 seconds, which then takes away some of the nuance, quietness and meaning of your work.
I want to post online and let the work build up. I want to paint a picture and a flow from a succession of things.
What I’m really toying with is the idea of quitting Instagram for all of 2026, as an experiment. This kinda frightens me because I want to do another crowd finder this year, and Instagram was surprisingly useful and getting some pledges last time I did it. But I just feel like my creativity and headspace will be the better for it?
Am I allowed to do that, I ask myself?